ishouldexaminemyhead@hotmail.com — Thu, 27 Nov 2003 20:03:29 GMT

Friends
Thats all we ever were
Thats all you ever seemed to want
No matter how we both feel
It doesnt matter
Not now
Friends thats all we'll ever be
I try to get close and you push me away
You try to tell me how you feel but you freeze up
Why can't we just say
Those un-spoken words
And be happy together
Together?

Oh my! Well I really like one of my incredibly close mates and I know she likes me too but shes said to people that she's too scared to tell me how she feels incase I laugh at her, or reject her when she knows that I feel the same way she does but still she wont say anything, she said on her journal:
'There is someone I think about all the time, but I can't tell this person that I do because I'm to shy and well, I think that it will scare them away. They know I like them, and want something to happen, but I don't want to ask them, as I don't think they want the same...and it feels quite painful to think about...It hurts knwoing that when I sit next to them or walk down the round, I can't be proud to hold their hand or tell them how I feel about them...I want to show this person how much I care...but knowing me I will probably fuck things up with my mouth as I always do..I always say the wrong things, or never do the right things...Hmmm.'
I mean its really annoying me now, should I tell her what she wants to tell me or should I just wait? Would she never tell me if I just waited and so should I ask her what she wants? Soooo confusing!!!!!

ishouldexaminemyhead@hotmail.com — Wed, 24 Sep 2003 18:13:44 GMT

Hmmm yeah I'm well pissed off, my other journal was 'suspended' it had all my thoughts and feelings and even lyrics to songs to help with my band and theyre all gone! FOREVER!!! :(
Oh well! I'll just start writing on this one again now :S
So yeah I'm ill and stuff but my mum's forcing me to go to school tomorrow :( oh well! I suppose I'll have to go!
Yeah thats all I can think of now

ishouldexaminemyhead@hotmail.com — Sat, 06 Sep 2003 19:21:34 GMT

The world is constantly laughing at me

Bif